yes, it happens

F.I.N.A.L.L.Y.
or You Lord have just perfect timing

never thought before,
I would survive time (such a long long time like this)
without any knowing -
it would get any better

not saying i didn´t enjoy
the Time - but I knew it wasn´t right
I know I was such wrong

...didn´t know how to get out of it...

and when i REALISED ...........like month ago (or more)
that I need o get back :
it started to get a lot worst
I started to get a lot worst

I´ll be honest with you guys,
I stopped to believe in such a great-big-perfect christian conferences many years ago...
I allways had great time, but
that´s it.

...and now it´s interesting
how God is working,
how He can touch you - wherever He wants

I went there - TURBULENCIA 014
even there were so many barriers:
I was sick, feeling terrible, there was nobody from my home church etc.
...the conference was good - as allways...
but "it" didn´t happened
I wasn´t inside of it
I was watching from a very close outside

n.o.t.h.i.n.g.

but I knew that´s something is planned to happen
so it made me stay - I still don´t know why, how

the Very Very Very last call for prayer
was -The One-
"I found out that it wasn´t what I thought:
that I wasn´t able to recieve forgiveness
for I still felt guilty (I was looking for reason why I still can´t get back), but
I found out - that I wasn´t willing TO GIVE UP
I wanted to get back by myself
I didn´t realized that I need to pay the price for gaining my life back
my Lord back. The price for decision to stay separate (sainted)"

HARD ONE - yeah
it opened my eyes

YES, it came in the very same second.
I knew I was renewed
I was His - and He was mine
again

never want this to end!!!!

P.S. : since then I am the happiest person in this planet - I can asure you.
NEVER WONNA THIS TO END - walking every day, every second with my Lord is the best.
...will never understand how could I gave up upon it,
but now I know, that I never wonna lose it again.

Back To The Start

Crushing

don´t have to bother by reading this article
I know you won´t, BUT

there is just one thing
I finally found out that I am nothing
wtiout Y.O.U.
totally the biggest nothing you´ve ever seen

I need you!!!
more than you can imagine
so lost in my thoughts
so lost in my feelings
so lost in my atitude
so lost in my actions
so lost in my speeches
so lost..

I never thought I can do it by myself,
but I never realized:
I can´t do it without you!

little bit late,
but not too late

show me your g.l.o.r.y.
this is the only thing I am asking for

don´t ask for help
don´t ask for nothing else
I just need you in my life

sorry for all I´ve done
can you pls


forgive???

I love you.
I love you more.
I lve you the most.

...don´t deserve YOU.