who you are

Who you are? It's about what you do, when you really do have time. :D

...am I lazy... S.H.I.T.
even if I would like this, I don´t know
sleeping 15 hours, doing nothing all day - just laying in your bad
tha's me --------- TODAY

mostly don't have time!
why?
is it about what I choose to do?
I do everything (they say I should)
and I don't feel like living...meybe
but is it right?

looking for a new friends -
because the old ones just disapeared
didn't notice when
traing to connect with them - no answer

the "actual" friend - they are really cool
but sometimes feeling like disturbing them

feeling alone???
n.e.v.e.r. felt like this before

no joking: NEVER

it's new - don't know how to deal it
I can't make new friends
don't know how
don't know how to get to the old ones
cause I changed

I am not sutisfied with my life!
Don't, really don't like what I'm doing..

Wierd: Yes, it is.

With love - loosing myself
for something hidden in me that is atracting so strongly
but doubt if I discover IT...

tell me WHAT IS RIGHT?
just wonna know:
WHO I REALLY AM?

..that will make me feel, like everything I do really metters..

¿reason?

...remeber?

I remeber those days
I was yours
you best friend of mine
we were close
every day spending all time together

In my memory there are those days
when I was your
and you were mine

It was the best time of my life
Why can´t we be just like that?
I am desperate to go to this time
I need you by my side.

You were the one who was allways where
I was loosing myself in my
trying to live as I wish
don´t think of anything

I need you by my side
to make my life right
I need you here with me
to teach me to do right thing
to decide whould I should do
what is just wrong...

...meybe those thing weren´t wrong
but I did them with wrong intention
and that´s what make them ruin my life.


I made myself believe that I hate you
more than I love you. (but it was hate about not controlling myself as I did before - all my life)
What is the thing that makes you stay with Lord.

I was so clean,
so pure
When did it change?
By becoming adult
if... I don´t
want it
I still wonna
be child
To be good, cute
simple, beautiful
N.O.W. - you need to
run after beauty, simpleness, love, joy, peace...
you don´t have just

because you are
you need to fight
for it, steal
your time for
it - to reach it
...and if you don´t
you won´t stay
the same - you are becoming to be
stolen the things you have
still, still - you


need to recieve

a fresh dose of

beauty, friendship, kindness,
love, family, God, bible That´s lifee.

First of all

first of all - just wanted to write ...go and *fuck* yourself... but this would be rude, wouldn´t ?

before I didn´t use those words - like N.E.V.E.R.
but things have changed - people change (you don´t believe me - just try me)

some of you may say: "it was allways you, only sleeping somewhere inside of you"

what I know it´s like there are two worlds fighting inside of me
I know which one is winning
and I don´t like it
don´t want it to continue like this

TWO WORLDs yes that´s the right topic for this...whatever it is.
me and me - which one I choose

Still you are choosing the one you spend more time in.
...is it clear for now? Shoul be.

"I wish I could stop, but I am not joking
drinking too much and socially smoking
wish I could stop and start to behave and stop verbally and otherway down assaulting..."
know this song.is simply about

shit - my nowadays favourite word (WHAT?) i don´t get it - really?
before never think about it

I loved how I was before
I wasn´t an angel - never, but I loved my life itwas cool
I was good - and was so proud of myself
everyhing that I toutch was gooing right,
I also loved helping people

now I feel like living for myself - loosing myself
in the things that doen´t metter
and have no sense, but dooing them
because in the moment you feel like doing them
because in the moment you feel great

they are filling you -
even if you now it´s wrong

just starting to decide
what you want and not
what you know it´s right
because one song say:
"who knows what´s right"

just don´t doing what I sould do...really feels like freedom - N.O.
why?

just feeling wrong about all this
but don´t know how to go back
feel like it´s too late or it would cost more than I can offer...

still wondering:
WILL YOU EVER COME BACK H.O.M.E.? - to the place where you belong