First of all

first of all - just wanted to write ...go and *fuck* yourself... but this would be rude, wouldn´t ?

before I didn´t use those words - like N.E.V.E.R.
but things have changed - people change (you don´t believe me - just try me)

some of you may say: "it was allways you, only sleeping somewhere inside of you"

what I know it´s like there are two worlds fighting inside of me
I know which one is winning
and I don´t like it
don´t want it to continue like this

TWO WORLDs yes that´s the right topic for this...whatever it is.
me and me - which one I choose

Still you are choosing the one you spend more time in.
...is it clear for now? Shoul be.

"I wish I could stop, but I am not joking
drinking too much and socially smoking
wish I could stop and start to behave and stop verbally and otherway down assaulting..."
know this song.is simply about

shit - my nowadays favourite word (WHAT?) i don´t get it - really?
before never think about it

I loved how I was before
I wasn´t an angel - never, but I loved my life itwas cool
I was good - and was so proud of myself
everyhing that I toutch was gooing right,
I also loved helping people

now I feel like living for myself - loosing myself
in the things that doen´t metter
and have no sense, but dooing them
because in the moment you feel like doing them
because in the moment you feel great

they are filling you -
even if you now it´s wrong

just starting to decide
what you want and not
what you know it´s right
because one song say:
"who knows what´s right"

just don´t doing what I sould do...really feels like freedom - N.O.
why?

just feeling wrong about all this
but don´t know how to go back
feel like it´s too late or it would cost more than I can offer...

still wondering:
WILL YOU EVER COME BACK H.O.M.E.? - to the place where you belong